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Oct 11Liked by allyson.

wish I could unread this and experience it again for the first time

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i feel the exact same way about meeting you for the first time because i swear it changed my life. ily, eve. you're a star. <3

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Oct 11Liked by allyson.

all your words and feeling that you pouring out in this letter just so valid cause ive been there too. hug for you my dear.

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thank you so much for reading and leaving such a sweet comment. i adore you <3

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Anna of the North to open this? hell yeah. one of my fave songs of hers too 🫶

the section where you mention coworkers getting botox made my heart hurt. one of the absolute worst parts of my old job was every woman (all 40+, I was the baby at that job lol) in the office talking about needing to diet and lose weight. it made me feel the same as I would at family holidays when my aunts would constantly remark on my body and if I looked "slim" or not. I've never met a man who's brought up my weight (which, like ajehdhfhfjajjs not that that matters to me as a lesbian) but I feel like i get unsolicited comments from women (almost always older than me) about it all the time. and regardless of whether they determine I'm at a "good" weight or not, I always feel like shit from these comments.

also ik I said this in one of your essays, but you're only 20. time is in abundance! it's normal to be scared, putting your heart out there and trusting another person not to crush it is incredibly vulnerable and hard to do! I remember the loneliness in my early 20s felt suffocating (probably bc you get to see most of your peers dating) but - as I think I said in another comment to you lol - being alone feels less shitty than being in an unsatisfying relationship. getting comfortable with being alone definitely is a process tho - and some days are better than others in that regard, it can still feel suffocating on my bad nights. it's really hard when society puts so much stress on finding a partner and most media elevates romance above all other relationships. it does on some level feel like you're failing at life by not managing to find your person. and ik it sucks rn, but you're not failing anything 💗

love you 🫂

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rachel, you're genuinely such an angel. i discovered anna years back and rediscovered her this year and i'm obsessed again.

god the diet culture of it all is so real and i'm genuinely so glad i don't have to deal with that because i would definitely destroy my relationship with food in the process. i'm so sorry you've had to repeatedly deal with these interactions.

thank you for always being so comforting. i definitely do have time and i'm glad i'm comfortable being by myself; that's never been an issue. i think i'm just like where tf have the real lovers gone???

love you. <3

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this made me emotional in math class !!!

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i’m sorry you were emotional but i’m so happy you’re here!!

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relatable and real and raw. your posts always get me feeling something, I swear. amazing as always

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god liv you’re just so beautiful inside and out. thank you for always being here

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🫶🏼🫶🏼🤍

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Oct 13Liked by allyson.

This was everything

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you are everything 🤍

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if that ain't the truth (all of the above), modern romance is not just dead it's already fully decomposed by now

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genuinely. like we are in a romantic crisis. thank you for reading <33

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Definitely feel you on this.

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i'm sorry that you can relate, but keep going. it'll end up working out. thank you for reading <33

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such beautiful and powerful words, i understand what you say—sending love 💞

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thank you for this awesome essay that I thoroughly enjoyed

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