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oh this is absolutely spectacular i wish the words i had to describe it could be said in person because i feel like id lose so much nuance in the text but this is so, so good. you're not alone in this

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i know i've said it a million times but i deeply appreciate you nadav. you're such a sweetheart <3

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I'm so deeply sorry that it's been such a hard week. and the opening story is insane, how do people just nonchalantly say such bigoted things on big platforms 😵‍💫

as for your ED flare, if eating is hard right now, please make sure you stay hydrated!!!! and a (probably unneeded) reminder that any food is better than no food, and carbs are important for brain function. be gentle w yourself during this episode 💗

love you 🫂

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girl, the way i have no answers for you. i was just aghast at the fact that it came out of her mouth and they kept it in.

thank you, my love! i've been drinking water and forced myself to to eat something last night. i appreciate you empathy so much, rachel. love you.

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I relate to everything here: the code switching, the insane fetishisation and subsequence jokification of black women, I guess in my anger I’m too prideful that I’m lonely but really, the isolation is always there

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you always get it. every single time. like we're both tired. thank you for reading this and standing with me.

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Oct 17·edited Oct 17Liked by allyson.

"Sobbing, inconsolable, begging him not to take my sister away. I didn’t even understand the words, but I felt the weight of them, the dread in my sister’s tight smile, the uniform that loomed over us." Most white people have never felt this and have no clue what you went through (as I'm sure you know), but we will be learning more and more over the coming years, even though it will never get as bad. Fwiw, I saw a reference to the n-word yesterday and tried to track down the person to see what happened and say how wrong that was, but that's one I never found.

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jack this is such a wonderful comment. i appreciate you reading and reflecting while you read. stuff like this means the world to me. thank you for reading intentionally and for leaving this comment. you're lovely.

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Thanks for your very kind response. Beyond that I think I’ll leave what you said as the perfect way to address the casual invocation of oppression that using that word amounts to.

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"They were just young. So were we. But some of us were buried young, shot into the grave before we ever had a chance. They’ll always be young because they never got the chance to grow, to "learn from their mistakes" like you do."

so eloquently pointing out the hypocrisy of it all. your words moved me not only do i feel for you, i feel with you. it's not enough. it may never be enough. i hope you are taking care of you during this time, and on behalf of my silent non-black poc, i'm sorry.

that being said, your words are breathtaking, and thank you for sharing them with us.

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this comment made my heart so warm. i love you, christina fang. you're incredible. <3

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i love you too thank u for sharing ur world

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Absolutely genius as per usual coming from you ally

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obsessed with you laura. thank you for being here with me. <3

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I get it I really do . Thanks for this offering 💕

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thank you so much for reading ariana. i adore you.

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beautifully written and this really hit close to home, thanks for sharing

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you are so welcome. love you.

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Wow this post really resonated on so many levels , your way with words is so profound and beautiful. Take care and please keep writing <333

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tysm for this comment. this really made my morning. 🤍

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I have no words. Just keep writing, we'll be here for you <3

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this means everything to me. love you 🤍

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Oct 17Liked by allyson.

Haunting and telling- I hope you’re doing better, I hope you’ll feel better. & I hope we become better. I can’t imagine the pain and suffering you endure, but I do know I can show up for you- for the black community. This post really spoke to me on a lot of levels. Sending u luv

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thank you, my angel. sending you love all the way back.

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