this is such a beautiful piece. the love we want and how we want it is something i think about so often. “i want a love that never denies me anything” ❤️
I definitely remember feeling a similar "crav[ing] for obsession" in high school/college. I've always been pretty shy and had a lot of trouble making friends as a kid (which I now realize was in large part bc I'm autistic lol) and I just felt like I was invisible to most of my peers. I would get crushes on practically any guy who gave me attention (lol the comphet), but they were never interested in the weird quiet nerdy girl (which in retrospect is a good thing, I suspect I'd have a lot of regrets now if I had gotten the attn I'd been yearning for then).
a refusal to settle probably feels like a flaw right now, but I promise it's a strength. my one (and only) relationship was me settling for something that was really unsatisfying bc I cared about them deeply and was trying to twist myself into what they needed. we both had a lot of introspection we needed to do and mental health issues to deal with (and I def had my own fuck-ups in the relationship, too!), but I held onto it for longer than I should have bc I didn't want to hurt them. while compromise is definitely a necessity for a successful relationship -- it is a *partnership* ! -- it's not healthy to feel like you're the one bearing all the weight for the both of you.
anyway sorry I probably got overly personal lol. the way you write is just so beautiful and you always describe these complicated feelings in a way that I completely understand. also being able to be introspective like this is half the battle already, I feel confident you'll find the love you're searching for 💗
even if it was overly personal, i'm glad something in my work made you want to reach out and open up. this is a lovely comment and i'm always happy to see you, rachel. you're incredible.
oh my god i love this piece so much!! such a beautiful depiction of astrology and love and the exploration that comes with figuring out what the planets mean for you. as an astrologer i’ve dissected my own chart and a big part of it is acceptance and taking what fits and figuring out what doesn’t. and the blackest day is truly one of lana’s best songs.
aww of course! and yes i have been studying it for a few years now. it’s such a strange experience to read your own birth chart in depth and feel solidification or acknowledgment that you are the way you think you are. my main statement when i try to make people believe in it, is that we are figments of the planets and universe so how can they not have some significance in who we are.
i love this so so much. i got into astrology as a way to get closer to my maternal grandmother because she died long before i was born. the women in my family are psychic and divinely blessed so i just kinda kept going. i hope you never let go of what you believe in <3
that’s so amazing oh my god!! astrology is a great way to learn more about where you’ve come from and it’s so lovely that the women in your family are blessed. if you have the ability, maybe try to look at their charts to see what it says! and that’s very sweet <3
this is such a beautiful piece. the love we want and how we want it is something i think about so often. “i want a love that never denies me anything” ❤️
i'm so glad you enjoyed it, maria. you're a gem. <3
this just reminded me how much i ADOREEE blackest day 😭 that song is so fucking healing
YOU GET IT
I definitely remember feeling a similar "crav[ing] for obsession" in high school/college. I've always been pretty shy and had a lot of trouble making friends as a kid (which I now realize was in large part bc I'm autistic lol) and I just felt like I was invisible to most of my peers. I would get crushes on practically any guy who gave me attention (lol the comphet), but they were never interested in the weird quiet nerdy girl (which in retrospect is a good thing, I suspect I'd have a lot of regrets now if I had gotten the attn I'd been yearning for then).
a refusal to settle probably feels like a flaw right now, but I promise it's a strength. my one (and only) relationship was me settling for something that was really unsatisfying bc I cared about them deeply and was trying to twist myself into what they needed. we both had a lot of introspection we needed to do and mental health issues to deal with (and I def had my own fuck-ups in the relationship, too!), but I held onto it for longer than I should have bc I didn't want to hurt them. while compromise is definitely a necessity for a successful relationship -- it is a *partnership* ! -- it's not healthy to feel like you're the one bearing all the weight for the both of you.
anyway sorry I probably got overly personal lol. the way you write is just so beautiful and you always describe these complicated feelings in a way that I completely understand. also being able to be introspective like this is half the battle already, I feel confident you'll find the love you're searching for 💗
even if it was overly personal, i'm glad something in my work made you want to reach out and open up. this is a lovely comment and i'm always happy to see you, rachel. you're incredible.
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oh my god i love this piece so much!! such a beautiful depiction of astrology and love and the exploration that comes with figuring out what the planets mean for you. as an astrologer i’ve dissected my own chart and a big part of it is acceptance and taking what fits and figuring out what doesn’t. and the blackest day is truly one of lana’s best songs.
hi, bailey. it's so nice to see you here. i'm obsessed with the fact that you're an astrologer i think that's so incredibly cool. tysm for reading.
aww of course! and yes i have been studying it for a few years now. it’s such a strange experience to read your own birth chart in depth and feel solidification or acknowledgment that you are the way you think you are. my main statement when i try to make people believe in it, is that we are figments of the planets and universe so how can they not have some significance in who we are.
i love this so so much. i got into astrology as a way to get closer to my maternal grandmother because she died long before i was born. the women in my family are psychic and divinely blessed so i just kinda kept going. i hope you never let go of what you believe in <3
that’s so amazing oh my god!! astrology is a great way to learn more about where you’ve come from and it’s so lovely that the women in your family are blessed. if you have the ability, maybe try to look at their charts to see what it says! and that’s very sweet <3