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wenyi xue's avatar

i love you so so much + you are so incredibly strong mentally and physically and emotionally for going through this and also choosing to fight it <3

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allyson.'s avatar

there are not enough words in any language to describe my affection for you. thank you for being here.

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Alice Clara's avatar

I've never read anything described quite like this. Your words are velveteen, or like they've been frothed as a barista would do with milk---either way there is an irresistible texture to this all. I could picture every line and every scene with the slightest mental effort---the words magicked it all up. Amazing. But more than this, I so wish you did not struggle so; I'm so sorry. Take care of yourself as best as you can. Your writing is too good to be stinted by a mind too hungry or too fatigued to write <3

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allyson.'s avatar

this is one of my favorite comments i've ever received. this is such a touching, intentional read of my work. readers like you are so immensely important to me. i adore you so much, alice. thank you for your empathy.

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isha's avatar

i've been fighting the ed demons from coming back for a few months now and this has been beyond helpful!! thank you for creating :)

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allyson.'s avatar

isha, i’m giving you the worlds largest and warmest hug. i love you so much. we’re going to be okay 🤍

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Alex's avatar

Incredible writing you show a lot of kindness and grace. Food can only be communicated through love, it is such a simple fact that has built societies and watched them burn. I hope your toast is delicious <3

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allyson.'s avatar

i love you. it was really good toast. 🤍

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Ria Elciario-McKeown's avatar

❤️

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allyson.'s avatar

<333

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⚘ಇ's avatar

i was trying to find the right words to comment but i am at a loss for words, i love this and i am so proud of you and i am so grateful to you for sharing this

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allyson.'s avatar

thank you so much for leaving this comment. it means everything to me.

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Bella's avatar

sending so much love. 🖤

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allyson.'s avatar

thank you for everything you do <33

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nadav's avatar

wonderful writing

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allyson.'s avatar

ilysm.

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Moone's avatar

I’m proud of you dear ❤️

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allyson.'s avatar

i love you. thank you.

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Moone's avatar

i love you.

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channey's avatar

I'm wishing you the absolute best as you start your journey. ♥️

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allyson.'s avatar

thank you for all that you do. <3

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Rachel's avatar

"It was about discipline and, subsequently, punishment. To be more specific, it was the act of punishing myself. I simply needed to be better." yep been there. I'm pretty sure I've mentioned that I had the opposite issue of overeating to make myself feel physically terrible to overpower the negative emotions I was feeling. I also grew up with my family making fun of how much I ate and the limited foods I would eat (which I now realize is bc the autism aksjdhfskjfdghksdjf). and I was also in denial about my disordered eating, I wasn't making myself throw up food and I wasn't restricting how much I ate so my relationship w food had to be healthy, right? (🤦‍♀️) once I finally came to accept that this was disordered eating (probably around your age), I then turned to caffeine as my way of punishing myself which.... was the case until I quit my AP job that I hated at the end of 2022. while I haven't been purposefully overeating to cause myself pain like I used to, I'm still working on finding the right balance of eating enough so I'm full without overdoing it tbh. it's really hard especially when you form these habits so young (as a lot of us do, unfortunately).

sending you a hug 🫂 I hope you have lots of delicious meals this holiday season💗

also since you asked about fave dishes - currently I've been really into pasta with veggies cooked in marinara sauce. love any reason to add red onion to a dish! (altho unfortunately I gotta be careful about how much red onion I eat bc my body loves to react with heartburn 😫😭)

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allyson.'s avatar

this made me tear up because it's insane how many people understand the crux of what i wrote about. i love you so much, rachel. i hope you're doing so well and i hope we have a chance to eat pasta and veggies together. x

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Lyndsey Kong's avatar

Allyson!! Sending so much love and it means the world to me that you have found joy and hope through my writing. 🫂💓 Thank you for your courage and vulnerability in sharing your journey - I’ve been in your shoes for many years and can confidently assure you that you are not alone, and there will be so much more joy and light ahead of you. Recovery is non-linear but there will be the other side. Supporting you always!! 🫶

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allyson.'s avatar

this comment is so important to me. you’re an incredible person and creative and i’m so glad to live in a time where i get to experience your work! 🤍

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mandy's avatar

Lovely write up about your battle with food 🤍 i caught a note and wanted to ask what it meant: “the rolling bead of a wayward drink”. That sounded beautiful but i have no idea what it means!

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allyson.'s avatar

this made me smile! the phrase is in reference to that moment where you drink too fast and your drink spills down your mouth, except here someone's hand comes to wipe it for you :) thank you for reading, i adore you!

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mandy's avatar

Aww thank you allyson 🥰 i understand it now!

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